Live & Learn, but Just calm down

I am working on my translation articles. It's getting close to the end, and I finally feel comfortable. It's been taking longer than I intended, but the hardest part was to start it. This article is depressing, but I have to fully understand the author's points in order to translate it properly. He is a pessimist and he is proud of it. Sigh... It's not my style, why did I even accept this job? Oops.

It was really hard to start. I wrote three words, I stood up (and I was surprised by me standing up). Another three words typed, I pulled my hair. Aw, gray hairs! I accidentally closed the editing software, oops, what/why did I do(that)?!! If someone called and I stood up to pick up the phone, then I felt like my keyboard and I had become magnetic poles, and both of us were like magnetic poles. Oh my, we repelled each other!! And all of a sudden, I felt like I was swimming in the open sea, my computer was washed away over the wailing wave, the weather got stormy. Oh no, the waves cry, the winds cry, the vast water laughing, AGRRRR!! I can't reach you, my Keyboarrrrrrd! *Panting* What was I doing, where was I?

After I laughed myself and enjoyed my silliness, I realized: What I needed was Nike shoes. Not really physical shoes, but their catch copy - Just do it!

I finally managed to start the writing, but I was already way behind my schedule. It has to be done by next Wednesday, but I somehow decided to finish on Sunday. I wanted to have a nice, fresh start on Monday I guess.

However, I wasn't fast enough (or the goal wasn't realistic), I was pushing myself really hard by Saturday morning. My breaths were getting shallower, fears and pressure arose, uh-oh, not a good sign. I was really panicking. I was getting miserable, I started blaming myself and the word "deadline" It's a really scary word, can anybody convert it to "goal line" or something?

By the way, my husband is working on a commercial fishing vessel. The Internet is dial up only, no TV, reading books is sometimes difficult on the rolling vessel. He buys a bunch of DVDs for his fishing trip (and never watches them again once he has seen it), so I use e-bay for recycling them. We have completely different tastes in movies; I just check the cracks or dirt and send them away. I don't normally remember any of the titles I have sold.

However, yesterday was different. I noticed that there were three e-mails from e-bay. Some nice people bought some of those used DVDs. Thanks, but not today, I thought. I thought I didn't have time to go to the post office, I was so obsessed with finishing my current tasks.

I opened the e-mail anyway, and the title of the first DVD I sold was "A bridge too far". Hmm. It sounds like the same feeling I'm having right now, I thought. A bridge to the accomplishment is too far. Yikes. I picked up the DVD from my e-bay box, put it on the desk to send out.

I opened the second e-mail. I sold the DVD "Running out of time". What? I turned around as if someone was watching over my schedule pad. I made a big sigh and then, I picked up the DVD for shipping and mumbled ""I know! I know! I don't have to be told, I am running out of time..."

I opened the last e-mail from e-bay for today. Whoa! I sold the DVD "Panic". This is uncanny!!! I put it on the desk, and then, I looked at them. There they were: "Bridge too far", "Running out of time", and "Panic" Hahahahahaha, I laughed. I got it, I have to calm down! Something is telling me that I've GOT to relax!!

I brewed a pot of coffee, and took a deep breath. I even took a walk. And then, I realized: it's not too bad, actually. It's actually easily manageable. Phew, I created a drama and I was going to be drawn... thanks to the DVDs!?